Wednesday, July 22, 2015

bump day.

heard it was bump day today. I don't even know what that is and I didn't look it up, but I kept seeing women post photos of themselves pregnant. thinking back to that time gives me all sorts of feels, obviously. (side note: how did that trend start? the saying "feels" trend. can't decide if I like it or hate it. am I even cool enough to say "feels"? anyway.) I had this random memory of Norah moving around in my belly and it feeling so intense and crazy in there as we got closer to her birth and as she was running out of space. then I remembered even earlier, at our first ultrasound, when her arms and legs were already moving all over so quickly.

and I kind of laughed at myself for always being surprised at how she never stops moving now. clearly she's been that way since the beginning of her time. a busy bird. God is going to show this laid back mama so much through this active girl, I can feel it. I think I'll go put on my running shoes. 

I don't have any of those. what is running? (; I'm tired.

Thursday, June 04, 2015

norah on set.

last week we were staying in a small town a couple of hours away. Chad has been working out of town some for this show, so Norah and I went to stay with him. it's hard to resist a free hotel stay. though we usually screw up any kind of schedule we've finally made in the process, so it's give and take. always worth it for us to all be together though! she's only one once!

one of those days we went to see him on set. I wish I had taken this photo from a slightly different angle so you could see their twinning eyes while squinting in the sun. she's a Taylor, no doubts about it. but Norah got to see a certain big shot actor doing his acting thing (I was really more excited about that than her, obviously), and an even bigger big shot (daddy) doing his thing. it was fun. and hot. I don't know how they stand outside all day in this heat. so we went to the camera truck and this is her claiming it as her own.

it was a nice day and made me forget about getting pulled over for the first time ever earlier in the day. ): I wasn't speeding, or doing anything wrong for that matter, I just didn't have a break tag stuck to my windshield. the rules for owning a car here are so silly. ah well. 

I have a hard time with Chad's job hours a lot of the time, but this day was a good reminder that it will be fun to take her to visit him as she grows. a neat experience for her.

hope you're all having a great Thursday! it is Thursday right? I never know anymore. (;

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

thanks, wednesday.

the last couple of days have been interesting. I declared we were on the struggle bus yesterday and it was only Tuesday. Chad is out of town for work. how will we ever make it to the weekend? I had even sent out a couple of 'please pray for me and my child that has the hardest time napping' texts. there are many reasons why I felt so worn and discouraged, but I won't list them all. I will say I put on a different pair of sweatpants than I had been wearing and felt like a new person. sad, ha.

I'm still learning on this mom journey, and I know that is completely okay. I will be learning for the rest of my life. but one thing I continuously forget is to ask for prayer. or to even pray for myself sometimes because I think I should be able to handle whatever I'm struggling with, so I just need to toughen up. so I'm here today to say the obligatory, "prayer works, people". I know I'm tough. I just forget. 

this morning, Norah greeted me with a kiss. I had barely said the words, "good morning" when she leaned in with a big wet kiss. I've been given countless kisses from her all day. all unprompted. I can't say the napping went any better really. we were out running errands and she always naps great in the car, so that doesn't count as better. but her demeanor was so much sweeter all day and I went from, 'I don't know if I can do this toddler thing' to 'I love this life'. thanks, Wednesday. 

this journey is made up of so many different seasons. and I dont usually catch a new one until it's over. but I'm grateful for all of them because in each one I learn and grow and even the hard ones make me that much stronger and better of a mama. and I'm grateful for praying friends and family and wet Norah kisses and sweet little hugs around my neck. I know it's only Wednesday and I don't know what the next few days will bring, but today was a much needed breath of fresh air. have a good night. (:

Tuesday, May 05, 2015

one year.

I know I've posted this one online before, but it's one I can sit and stare at forever. such peace. and wasn't this just yesterday? no?

well I've decided I don't have any good words to describe my feelings today or how much I love this girl, so there's that photo. I'm going to go hold my one year old for as long as she'll let me.